It's 2 days later and I went back to work this afternoon. I totally didn't want to go, but I had to get back on the proverbial bike again. I was pretty much a nervous wreck. I won't get graphic here. I still have my headache, but it has subsided in intensity somewhat. On the way to work, I had to make a stop at the Police Dept...
What fun. I had the lovely chore of ID'ing the sons of bitches today. Thankfully I only had to look at photos. I freaked at photos. I can't imagine what my reaction would have been had I had to face them. I also had to ID the merchandise and their clothing - also by photographs. The merchandise was blood spattered. DISGUSTING. When it came to the picture of the shirt the one guy was wearing, I lost it. I don't know if I mentioned the shirt before or not. The one that did the actual robbery was wearing a t-shirt with a face on it. His jacket was unzipped and the eye of the face was starring at me the whole time I was "waiting" on him. It freaked me out the whole time he was there and it freaked me out when I saw the photo. I made the detective turn it over right away. I started to shake as soon as I saw it. Then after seeing the photos of the clothes they were wearing and the merchandise, I had to look at the photos of them. It didn't take more then a nano-second to recognize them.
If this goes to trial, and if I have to testify, I am going to have an attack of some sort, will probably vomit and lose other bodily fluids as soon as I see them. The detective told me he didn't think it would come to that, since they were on parole already, they had some of the jewelry on them, they were on a high-speed chase, they evaded a police officer, they caused a car crash, they had criminal tools on them, this was a felony robbery and I am sure they can find more charges to add to the list. I hope they do. They were sent to County Jail and were probably already on the way to state prison when I was at the P.D. Keep praying they are locked up until they are too old to walk any longer.
I also found out an interesting tidbit. The store across the way from us, watches out for us. The guy there noticed the 2 scary men walking back and forth in front of the store. He was watching us from his doorway, phone in hand, so if they actually came in and it looked wrong, he was going to call the police. Well, just before they walked in, his back door buzzer rang with a delivery. He was at his back door when he saw them run past and was able to get a description of the get-away car.
I also learned that the first name of one of the robbers is Uranus. Just proves what an asshole he is.
I hope I can get past all of this. I still have to work there. I am going to try and take next week off. I need to try and get my head together. I have not been able to sleep, so I am soooo tired. I keep seeing that face and the eye starring at me and the shiny thing coming towards me. I keep thinking that if it was a gun, I would have been shot in the back. If I hadn't seen it coming, and ran, I would have been sprayed with glass. I am thankful it wasn't worse. It could have been. But, it was bad enough.
I think I have had enough tsoris. I think it is time that things start working out in my favor. Don't you?
Until next time...goodnight
7 comments:
I guess I am selfish and think only I was affected by this. I am thinking only of myself. If anyone else wanted to trade places with me, they are more then welcome to. I didn't ask for this. I know others were affected. I am not that cold and un-caring. Unfortunately, I was the "lucky" one to have been standing in his face. If that makes me a bitch or selfish or whatever, then so-be-it. I can't help it. Fuck everyone.
Dearest Maureen,
You really need to insist on taking some time off-- no question.
Just call Corporate (or whomever), and let them know you're taking time off. Don't ask them; TELL them.
I hope you'll be surrounded by loving family and friends during Pesach.
Thanks Yaakova. You are a very kind hearted friend. I wish we could email or talk in person. I am amazed at some of the stupid things some people have said over the past week.
I am off work this week and going to get my head shrunk on Thursday. That in itself is a little scary, but it should help - - I hope. Actually, a Psychologist, not a shrink. His receptionist said he is very nice, but what else could she say! Being home is helping a bit, I think, but I can't hide here forever. I am not hiding in the house, but I am hiding from work and I have to be able to go back there at some point.
Thanks again for your kind words and well wishes. I accept them wholeheartedly.
Maureen,
You can feel free to email me privately at monaco316@yahoo.com. I'm really glad you went to a psychologist today-- I believe that talking through your fears as well as what you went through would be helpful.
Sometimes people can be thoughtless-- usually not malicious, but they just don't consider another person's feelings or perspective. I'm sorry you've been faced with people like that after the incident. It may be a good idea to talk about it only with people who've proven to be trustworthy and considerate of your feelings, and practice your pblic responses to everyone else.
I hope this makes sense to you.
Your friend,
Yaakova
Hellooooooo, Hows your week going?
oxcher
not so great. hope yours was better
NOT A CHANCE! but at least we've got ....... i don't know. sorry positive thoughts are just not in the forecast for me lately.
i do love ya and i wish good things for you everyday, rain or shine! :^)
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