Dearest Leah,
I can not believe it has been a year since your untimely and senseless passing. The days have flown by, but it seems the grief is lingering.
I have mourned you...felt all the emotions and the anger and the selfish hurting. It hurts to know I will not see you again for many years...when we all gather again in heaven. But I still see you...your smile, your twinkling eyes, your beauty and your grace. I still hear your laughter and your funny stories and your caring words. I can still see you dance. They may only be images and sounds emblazoned in my memories...but they are forever.
As we mark the one year point, I want to start celebrating you and your life. The way you touched my life and the life of everyone that had the pleasure of knowing you.
I celebrate the beauty of you. Inside even more beautiful then the outside. The humor you so willingly shared. The kindness you selflessly doled out. The love you gave unconditionally. The elegance of the dances you performed. The nicknames you called me. The times you tried to connive me into letting you drive. The filthy words you let flow in the privacy of my car...always out of range of your parents. The vulnerability of you. Your love of animals. Everything about you was a joy. My life is fuller because of you. I am grateful for you.
I may never stop grieving you, but I will also never stop celebrating you. I know in my heart that is what you would want. Your generosity would want that. And I honor you.
Leah Marie...my dear cousin...I will miss you and love you forever.
Until next time...
Friday, April 25, 2008
Saturday, April 19, 2008
Wednesday, April 09, 2008
ADMONISHED AGAIN!!
Well, I have been admonished yet again to update my bloggy! Brian, I am doing this just for you!
So, what's been going on in my world? I know you all spend sleepless nights wondering!!! LOL! Now, after reading, you can get a good nights sleep! Actually, this may be so boring, you fall asleep NOW! Just call me the "natural ambien"!!
Ok, first...I think Spring may have sprung! It has been in the mid-sixties for 2 days now! I know, this is Cleveland and the weather can change quicker then a speeding bullet. But, I am hoping! I did hear that we may get some snow in afew days, but I am choosing to ignore that! I am going to continue to enjoy the sun and having my windows open!
Work has been going well. I haven't been made permanent yet (it's been 3 weeks, what the hell are they waiting for!), but I am still hopeful. I have had some conversations with some people that carry some weight there, and the situation has been discussed and bantered about. I have been doing a lot of what I call CSI work! I am getting the error reports and researching them, correcting what I can and gathering info for the people that can make the corrections. The most frustrating part is when I have to call insurance companies regarding authorizations. OY! You have to listen to 7835125621739 options and then press the right number! Then, you are told it needs to be someone else to help you...then the transfer...then the hold...then be told it is the wrong person...then the transfer...then the hold........... You get my drift! I think they do this so you will give up, write off the visits and they don't have to pay! But, I don't give up! I wait and wait and get it done!
The actual environment in the building I work in is awesome! Everyone is really nice and helpful and friendly. I was introduced to all the PT's, OT's, MSW's and ST's at a meeting last week. And in my own amazing way made quite the impression on them all...as I was leaving I tripped over the display easel and sent it flying! I managed not to come face-to-face with the carpet! So, I would say my intro was memorable!
My boss demands we take our alloted break and meal times...no working thru lunch. But, I have decided to eat as I work (healthy homemade meals or salads!), then spend my meal time walking! YES, I WALK! I am so outta shape...and sitting on my doofus all day doesn't help! I see a lot of people doing the same thing. The perimeter of the office park is a 1/2 a mile.
I will also be starting a part-time job at the local coffee house on Friday night. Hence the coffee house avatar ;) . I was so excited that the owner agreed to give me a chance, I forgot to even ask how much my pay is! I am looking forward to it. I kinda like coffee ;) I will be pretty tired, but ya gotta do what ya gotta do!
The end of the month will be the one year anniversary of the senseless death of my dear sweet cousin Leah. I can't believe it is already a year. It seems like yesterday. I remember the phone call as if I just got it this morning. I don't think I will ever forget that. I will be in Dayton at the end of the month as Leah's headstone will be placed on her grave. In Judaism, a headstone is not placed until 1 year after the death. If you want, I can do another blog on the ritual and why we wait a year.
I have to apologize to all of my cyber-friends...I have been very lax and not visited your blogs in a while. I am still trying to acclimate myself to working and getting up at 6:30 every morning! I am loving it...but missing your lives. I will try and get caught up as soon as possible.
I hope this fulfills my blog duties for now!
Oh craparoni...I didn't even talk about American Idol! Who do you like? I seem to change my favorites quite a bit this season! I do still like David Archuletta and Jason Castro. I also tend to like David Cook and Brooke. But I don't think Brooke will win. And I am over Michael Johns! Oh, and there is something about Carly that I am not a fan of. But, I do think she has a great and strong voice.
OK, I will end it here. You are prolly snoring your face off by now anyhow!!!
Until next time...
So, what's been going on in my world? I know you all spend sleepless nights wondering!!! LOL! Now, after reading, you can get a good nights sleep! Actually, this may be so boring, you fall asleep NOW! Just call me the "natural ambien"!!
Ok, first...I think Spring may have sprung! It has been in the mid-sixties for 2 days now! I know, this is Cleveland and the weather can change quicker then a speeding bullet. But, I am hoping! I did hear that we may get some snow in afew days, but I am choosing to ignore that! I am going to continue to enjoy the sun and having my windows open!
Work has been going well. I haven't been made permanent yet (it's been 3 weeks, what the hell are they waiting for!), but I am still hopeful. I have had some conversations with some people that carry some weight there, and the situation has been discussed and bantered about. I have been doing a lot of what I call CSI work! I am getting the error reports and researching them, correcting what I can and gathering info for the people that can make the corrections. The most frustrating part is when I have to call insurance companies regarding authorizations. OY! You have to listen to 7835125621739 options and then press the right number! Then, you are told it needs to be someone else to help you...then the transfer...then the hold...then be told it is the wrong person...then the transfer...then the hold........... You get my drift! I think they do this so you will give up, write off the visits and they don't have to pay! But, I don't give up! I wait and wait and get it done!
The actual environment in the building I work in is awesome! Everyone is really nice and helpful and friendly. I was introduced to all the PT's, OT's, MSW's and ST's at a meeting last week. And in my own amazing way made quite the impression on them all...as I was leaving I tripped over the display easel and sent it flying! I managed not to come face-to-face with the carpet! So, I would say my intro was memorable!
My boss demands we take our alloted break and meal times...no working thru lunch. But, I have decided to eat as I work (healthy homemade meals or salads!), then spend my meal time walking! YES, I WALK! I am so outta shape...and sitting on my doofus all day doesn't help! I see a lot of people doing the same thing. The perimeter of the office park is a 1/2 a mile.
I will also be starting a part-time job at the local coffee house on Friday night. Hence the coffee house avatar ;) . I was so excited that the owner agreed to give me a chance, I forgot to even ask how much my pay is! I am looking forward to it. I kinda like coffee ;) I will be pretty tired, but ya gotta do what ya gotta do!
The end of the month will be the one year anniversary of the senseless death of my dear sweet cousin Leah. I can't believe it is already a year. It seems like yesterday. I remember the phone call as if I just got it this morning. I don't think I will ever forget that. I will be in Dayton at the end of the month as Leah's headstone will be placed on her grave. In Judaism, a headstone is not placed until 1 year after the death. If you want, I can do another blog on the ritual and why we wait a year.
I have to apologize to all of my cyber-friends...I have been very lax and not visited your blogs in a while. I am still trying to acclimate myself to working and getting up at 6:30 every morning! I am loving it...but missing your lives. I will try and get caught up as soon as possible.
I hope this fulfills my blog duties for now!
Oh craparoni...I didn't even talk about American Idol! Who do you like? I seem to change my favorites quite a bit this season! I do still like David Archuletta and Jason Castro. I also tend to like David Cook and Brooke. But I don't think Brooke will win. And I am over Michael Johns! Oh, and there is something about Carly that I am not a fan of. But, I do think she has a great and strong voice.
OK, I will end it here. You are prolly snoring your face off by now anyhow!!!
Until next time...
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